|Yummy looking Steak|
|Pizza Hut P'Zolo|
Breakdown? Or Breakthrough? My verdict is that it is a breakthrough. This time around I have been keeping a simple record of what I've been eating and I was able to look back to see the patterns. My co-workers might really appreciate the data collection. Anyway, looking back I can see where my thinking started to change. Partially, it had to do with Keysa being gone, apparently I do better with some accountability. Keysa and I were talking about food a lot, and with her being gone, I wasn't as focused on nutrition. It may just be that it wasn't a priority for me. I noticed at the same time that some of my lazier habits tend to come back all at once. I wasn't having as much fun preparing for and making dinner, I wasn't waking up as chipper as normal, and on days when I didn't have work, I was starting to sleep in pretty late and not shower all day. No big deal, except that it is usually the sign of the beginning of a depressive episode for me. We all have our signs if we pay attention. So. I am actually just realizing this as I type. And I realize that I need to pull my shit together right now, cause I'd prefer not to get all moody and non-motivated. Do we all get like this sometimes? I don't know. I just know what happens to me. I can envision myself holing up in the house, not crafting, not reading, just laying around. Awesome, right? Not that I was falling into a depression, but that I'm able to catch it this time!
I encourage anyone who is trying to make a major life change, such as totally changing your eating habits to share it with the right friends to create some accountability. For me, just knowing that some of my friends will read this, is what is going to get me back on track. Even if not one of you makes it all the way through the end of this long ass blog post, there is the slight possibility that you have, and that you might wonder whether I am going to follow through on my commitment to changed behavior. So, thankyou kind reader for keeping me healthy and sane.