Yesterday I had a super long day. I didn't have much time to stop and eat. I ate with the kids in the office during their lunch time. Then I raced over to my other school and had a couple of meetings until 4:30. They were the kind of energy draining meetings that make me not want to work out. Luckily Jak was at the last meeting and when I said I didn't feel like going to Tae Kwon Do she suggested walking the Lanikai Loop. I agreed. So I got home, had some almonds and raisins, changed and we walked the loop. It was an okay workout, got the blood flowing, but I was just still exhausted when I got home. I made dinner and for some reason dreamt about the chips in the fridge. I kept feeling like I couldn't have any and it made me want them more. Then I remembered that this challenge isn't about being super strict, it's about discovering how to make it a lifestyle. So I stopped and thought to myself if I really wanted the chips. I decided I did. I had 4 chips and walked the dogs. I really took notice of the taste of the chips and as usual, it wasn't as good as I imagined in my head. So I stopped eating them. They didn't really do it for me. I think part of my problem, when super strict is that the imagined "unhealthy" food takes on this magical delicious taste and texture in my mind. I keep thinking how wonderful it would be if I could just have a bite... Well, mostly I know that's not true. And when I'm not super tired I don't bother. I have other delicious things to eat. But when tired or under the weather, I may need to change tactics if the fantasy grows wildly. I may need to stop and think whether or not I need to have some to stop the madness. Last night it worked. Monday it mostly worked, but I wasn't prepared. I did not let the eating spiral out of control, however. It's not that I think you shouldn't eat any snacks or carbs at all. I know that for me, it's like crack-cocaine and I can get out of control. I am retraining my brain to enjoy a smaller amount, in moderation. Mostly I go without, but a planned snack is okay.
Also, I'm still deciding whether I should have a glass or two of wine tomorrow at Hallowine. I may have a glass of wine, or my other options would be drink water all night, maybe in a fancy glass, or to have a drink like a gin and tonic. I don't even know if that last will be available though. What are your thoughts? Continue to work this challenge to be about moderation? I don't know. I kind of like how I feel after not drinking. Maybe I should wait until tomorrow to see how I'm feeling. If I'm tired and stressed out I might not be able to handle just having one or two glasses, I might go totally overboard.
2 comments:
I think you went over board from your Facebook post. Not sure what Hallowine is but I'm bummed I wasn't there. Four chips isn't bad. Sometimes tasting it lets you know it isn't as good as your mind makes it seem. I'm not a big chips fan unless there is gucamole which I'm having now. The potatoe thing has been easy. I think I need a harder challenge.
Yeah, drank more than I planned, but it's cool. I also worked out hard yesterday and don't feel like I stopped eating well. I feel like I celebrated, but still on track today.
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